head-bangers' nightmare

I finished knitting my first successful project - which is not to say my first project - but it turned out nicely. It is an ivory-colored chenile scarf. I would like it to be a tad bit longer, but it is not misshapen and is long enough to function as a scarf, so I'm happy with it. It looks a lot like fettucini alfredo.

Someone needs to invent a perfect journal. Or at least, dear readers, one of you needs to point me to one that already exists. The problem that I run into is that there is a high end and a low end in the journal market, and not a whole hell of a lot in between. I can purchase for $14-$30 a nice high-end journal, complete with embroidery or beadwork on the cover and a nice satin-y page marker and thick, thick, bleed-thru resistant paper; or I can get for $4 or less a traditional college- ruled composition book (which have an abnormally high sex appeal for inanimate objects) that is a nice width and thickness overall, but the pages, should I use liquid-inked pens (which I often do) are only usable on one side.


What to do? I usually just go back and forth. When occupying composition books, I paste a lot of stuff on the un-writeable-on sides of pages, which is nice to do because I usually have interesting stuff. Sometimes it's a stretch, though. It takes me less than a year to fill one up, and soon I'll move out of an expensive one back into a comp book, although this time I went with a non-traditional comp-book-like "journal" as it declares itself on the front (which has got to go, by the way) with a very light checkerboard over even lighter paisley print, all in subdued greys and blues. It's nicer than it must sound, swear.


Time to stop boring the nice people and get back to work. Sorry, nice people.


Oh, yeah! Not so fast! I have to vote tomorrow, and am caught between three separate desires. First: vote for my man Howard, becase I actually, for the first time, put effort into a political campaign on his behalf and want to be loyal - also it might contribute to sending progressive delegates to the convention even if he doesn't get the nomination. Second: vote for Edwards on account of my pronounced and surprising but not completely unexplainable dislike for John Kerry. Third: (and most distasteful) vote for Kerry so that he can win the nomination strongly in a show of force that would (hopefully) propel his candidacy into a resounding defeat of that horrible, horrible man. (Ugh.)


What will probably happen: hell, I don't know if I can bring myself to vote for Kerry in the general election, so I honestly don't see it happening in the primary. I guess I'll watch the polls and if Edwards seems to have any sort of shot, I'll vote for him, but it would be really silly to shoot the obvious nominee in the foot, as the fucking Democratic party did when they had a frontrunner breaking fundraising records nearly a year before the general election. Idiots. (Honestly, sometimes I don't know who I hate more, the R*p*bl*c*ns or the fucking Democrats.) I'll probably go with Dean. I sent *money* to him, for God's sake. I can't not vote for him.